... inside i feel hate, as everthing turns frail,
    can't seem to hide it,
    my anxiety to the world...
    help me forget it,
    my problems, turn them to ash,
    keep me alive,
    keep me alive inside,
    and keep your love from fading away...

is it?... a remorse feeling about something... i can't seem to know what, neither can i see the reasons why...
 
it's something like, i can say, a series of unfortunate events... really unfortunate... a handfull of really BAD THINGS that is happening to me since, well weeks ago..
 
can't anybody say it in like forthright something?? so we can get it over and done with!!
 
since i know everybody's getting really touchy feeling about it... and before anybody burst like some water bomb and get us all wet... eww... 
 
things are getting out of hand really, it's getting annoying too...
 
oh well.... so much, so much!!